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12月20日 Tonight and WorkWork was fun :) It was busy, but it wasn't a bad day at all, I actually loved it... Specner's is a fun place :)
Tonight we had a Rock Band/Gift Exchange Party :) It was a lot of fun. Seeing everyone there (except Leif), I got a feeling that I haven't got in a long time... since before I started my 10th grade year. I was just watching everyone play and talk, barely talking myself, but I don't know why... it was calming. I was content. I am almost completely happy with life right now, but I feel like something is missing, but I can't think of anything that is... I saw someone from my gradeschool... Her name is Kelsie Jackson, she is nice, well lol The last time I talked to her... who knows... ha...
Time and years have taught me that the people I knew and were close to then are now much much different now. Oh well though. I miss the times where everything felt so close, instead of something a few feet out of reach, and I don't have a ladder or the speed to get to it. If only I could touch it, my memories, but I know it's impossible to touch something in my head and in the past. I keep trying to move on from my memories, but my memories are something special. If I don't remember them, then I will forgot them, along with the lessons learned as they happened. I guess this is my main problem, memories. I love them to keep, I love them to learn from, for every time I look back on them, some new item, some new thought, appears, and it makes things a little bit more clear. Some part of me wishes to loose them, but then as soon as they were lost, I would remake the mistake I had learned not to do, instead of try to move around the mistake next time around. My memories prevent me from moving forward to make new ones though, I keep dwelling on the past, and the could-have-beens of the other options at that time's hand, all the while I am loosing the new could-have-beens current hands, or more past hands. I should move on, stop dwelling, this memory has yet to give me a lesson. I have read the paper on it, but my mind is still trying to wrap around, so while it is doing so, I will be loosing more could-have-beens until I let go of dwelling and just accept the lesson as it is.
Bye-bye,
Ttfn 12月17日 Snow :)Yay! There is about 5inches according to my mom :) It is kind of a pain in the ass to walk to work in it though... bleh.
Well I have a new class -.- But it's really stupid and it's almost exactly like the class I had last year, so it's boring to me... I don't really want to do it. Oh well though.
My job is really fun :) And this blog is gonna be a short one since I have to go shower and get ready for today.
Bye-bye,
Ttfn |
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