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2月25日 Deeper Than ThatSomething deeper than the puddles, Caused by the rain, Something deeper than that, Affecting the inner outer thing.
It’s bigger and smaller, So simple and yet complex, Something deeper than the puddles, Caused by the rains.
The conversations heard, Go general, but steep, And the pitter patter goes With the busy passing feet.
Something deeper than the puddles, Caused by the pouring rain, Something deeper than that, Affecting the inner outer thing. By: Caitlin Schemmer 2月23日 A Blog For Tonight.I am just staring at my computer screen, waiting for something to come up into my head, and all that comes up are my trust issues and my want to write something poetic, but oh well.
My mom got back on Sunday and she was really happy to see that she didn't have to clean anything up when she got home. She slept almost immediately after she, Amanda, and I got home from WalMart and Safeway. It was a pretty quiet night.
Today I went and hung out in the office with Stacy to see what it would be like to work in the office. I only hung out in there till noon, I got there at nine. I also hung out with Leif... it was pretty fun =) We just walked around and hung out at his house for a little bit. He got a new cell because his was stolen :( He has the same number though so that is good :)
I might not be able to go to Disneyland, which really sucks... I am hoping that I can go though, hopefully mom is here during at least that week
 I am so depressed right now that I am getting sick. I hate it when I get this way :( I won't cry, but my face is an unmoveable expression of "down." But I can deal with it like so many times before.
Oh yeah! I saw my friend Josh today, he normally goes by Ticker, but I don't call him that, cause I am a weirdo. Oh well... he gave me a ride near Leif's so that I wouldn't have to take the bus, even though the bus isn't bad =) I like the bus actually.
Well... I better go I think I might write a poem in my doc.
Bye-bye,
Ttfn 2月16日 Parents Moving UpdateWell it turns out that my step-dad is moving to Wisconson tomorrow morning. He has a job pretty much lined up for him. I am a little nervous, but I think I am ready to move out... I think. Everyone has been ignoring me again. Oh well.
Something that kind of stabbed me yesterday was that someone, not naming who, didn't want to read something I wrote... when normally the person doesn't mind reading things I write. But I am not going to be all butt hurt about it, it's no big deal. I know what I write isn't too horribly interesting.
But I should probably go. We are having a going away party for him and I can't be all glum in the room.
Bye-bye,
Ttfn 2月15日 A Freewrite? I guess.Come on fingers, write out something fun,
"No," they sadly reply,
"Nor I," said the thumb.
By: Caitlin Schemmer Why I Need WritingIf I don't write, I get uninspired to do anything. I don't do school, I don't leave my house, I don't go have fun. I don't anything, I need it. I need writing when I need to vent and when no one will bother listening. When I feel alone, I write. When I anything, I have an urge to write about it. When I feel alone... I feel alone a lot. I am not sure why I do... I could be standing in a crowded room, people talking to me, and still feel like the outcast. Still feel like the one not belonging in that scene. I feel alone. I don't know if anyone right now will understand me, I don't understand me. I know though that I will know me one day. Each time I learn me, a new me is there taking the place. Changing this or that about me... I am thankful for the change, but not really at the same time.
I feel disconnected from the world right now... I am having a had time feeling anything... I just feel alone... I feel like this blog is a message for help, from the inner me that I don't know. But I don't think that it is really. I think that I am just typing and letting what comes out come out. But I am gonna go now...
Bye-bye,
Ttfn My Past Few Days :)The past few days have been awesome :D Especially Friday and Saturday though ^__^
On Friday I went to the college and it was really fun ^__^ Leif and his friends were playing DnD and I was just sitting around on my computer playing Cabal and doing other things O.o I really forget what else I was doing on my computer. Anywho! After they were done playing DND we all just hung out until... hmm I think 6? Then Leif, Adam and I went to dinner at Sharis (Idk if that is how you spell it >.<). THEN Adam went and picked up his friend Stevie and Leif and I ran into James and Emily. Then we went to see Coraline together (Adam and Stevie included). I am not sure if his name was Stevie... >.> Yeah we can keep that to ourselves...
I am just full o dull this morning eh...
Anywho ! Last night was awesome :D Work was really fun xD Some drunk man hugged me and his boyfriend was telling him to stop.. and yes I can say that they were dating because he told me so xD Twas funny. They were a cute couple. And! xD Some old guy came up to me and asked about age limits to work at Spencer's and I thought he meant what is the yongest someone could be. So I told him 16, but then he said, "Oh no! I meant for me! Is there a limit to how old you can be to work here?" xD It was awesome, he was kidding about that, I think :) Still some of the people that come into that store are awesome ^__^ And then after work I went over to the Battle Den and met up with Leif, Paige, and his girlfriend Heather. She is pretty cool, from what I can tell so far :) After we hung out there for maybe... Idk... 15minutes we went to a show to watch our friend's band play, they were pretty good, After the show was over Leif and I went off on our own and walked to Haggen's and hung out there for about an hour :) It was fun, last night was an awesome night :D
Ah man that was a boring blog... but I better get my ass on school >.< Idk what the plan is for today though >_< SO I better do some now rather than wait and find out later >.<
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn 2月11日 Dun dun dun... Another blogOne of my favorite anime/manga series is Kodocha. It also depresses me beyond belief, but that doesn't stop me from loving the manga. I am not entirely sure WHY I love it so much, but it truely does depress me.
I feel like writing something meaningful; but there is nothing meaningful that I can think to say. I wish there was... I wish a lot of things though, but that doesn't mean that they will come true. Wishing doesn't really make sense to me... hoping does though. Even though, when looked at they are almost the same thing, but hoping seems a little bit more soild than wishing. Haha... Kind of weird then that I say "I wish" a lot more than "I hope."
I feel like confessing something, but I have nothing to confess. My mind is filled, yet is empty. I wish, there I go again.. I HOPE that one day I can make a difference, I want to inspire people to be more than what they believe they can be. I want people to look at me and think, "She is a truely helpful person" because that is all I want to do... All I want to do is help people in the best way that I can... Which to me, is from what I write. Maybe it is all in my head, but to me, some of the things I write are powerful, inspirational even, but who knows? I want people to read something that I have written and think about it. Think about it. Not just see it. I want it to stick. I want to be like some of the people I think of... create something with my words, with my own thoughts, that teachers, parents, and friends will say to someone in need... Saying something truely that powerful, that it has an affect on someone, in some way, hopefully positively. I sound like I am trying to be famous... fame really has little to do with what I am saying. I am saying I want to make some sort of differnce, no matter how small it is. I want people to think about the things I say and I want them to have a positive influence on those around them, and have them spread something good and right and pure.
But I will stop now...
Bye-bye,
Ttfn |
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