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July 05 Just Me WritingI need to be free with my pen or my keyboard or my pencile. My mind is clogged and I am feeling trapped. I feel like something is looming over me, but I don't know what it is. I tried writing something meaningful today; it was a waste of time. Whenever tried it never comes out right, but when I just simple go at it, it always means more than just the single words. I wish I was more symbolic with my writings... or rather more successful when I do try to be symbolic.
I need to write some poetry or something a little bit less dull than just a blog or a paragraph. Ah man, I feel so out of place. Anyways... I have to go.
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn
P.S. Ah short series of blogs... how I have missed you so. Me Being Weird MeWhy is it that when I have a problem, I turn to the oddest people for advice, or at least want to. Anyways... Leif and I had a talk last night and he suggested that I make some of it into a poem, so I am going to, not now though.
Anywho, I should go.
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn June 28 Pride ParadeThe Pride Parade was so much fun =) Had some ups and downs with it, but that is usually how it goes with most things.
As I am sitting here, alone as I do most every night, I can't help but feel a wordless emotion take over me. It is thoughtful and blunt, saddening in it's way of making my mind think. I feel I should be finished talking with people about my problems. Why should they care or carry the cross I have been given to bare? Possibly, though, there is a needed break of stopping and telling just at least one person on my walks pathway that it hurts or causing some sort of emotion in me. I feel though, that perhaps, I should let it be and silently remain with it forcing me onward or otherwise. Too much focus, I see, hath been placed on me. Maybe I am seeking out someone else, to feel that I am not alone with these feelings or thoughts or mindset. Although, I do believe my mind is my own in it's way, though, I am sure, every idea I have had someone else has had before. It is how it is phrased and how it is spoken that make it different. In a way, originality is non-exsistant, but in another way, it is still very much here, creating new and bolder ideas for phrase and spoken words.
Ah... I feel stupid for writing this way. I will go.
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn June 26 I think this is 201 O.o"You really don't need to prove anything to anyone, dear Scorpio. You may be feeling under a bit of pressure to get a lot of work done. But some projects, especially those that require creativity, simply can't be rushed. You will find that if you take your time and allow your muse to work her magic, you will produce something of real merit in the end. If, however, you try to rush, your time will likely be spent in vain."
I needed to see that :) I have been trying to write more, and I have been, praticularly at work. But I have come up with something I think is okay-ish. I am also reading a book called "Mistress Shakespeare" which is an OKAY book. I finished "The Da Vinci Code" I think last week... it was really good :) I am starting to like "Mistress Shakespeare" more and more though... possibly because William Shakespeare is becoming a bigger and bigger role in the book, but it is still mainly about the woman they THINK he was married to before Anne Hathaway. I am such a nerd...
Anywho, tonight I saw one of my good friends from my first High School :) It was awesome, but I don't think that his girlfriend cares for me all too much, he said that she didn't dislike me though... who knows? She probably doesn't really have an opinion on me and I am just overthinking it. Anywho... work at Spencer's is almost over, I am soooooo excited. I miss getting to see Aaron (the friend from my first High School) on a somewhat more regular bases. Oh well though I guess. I should probably go soon. Maybe I will type up something that I wrote at work, but it is much like something else I have written. Ooooohhhh weellll. I need to revisit some of the old things anyways :) I am starting to suck at writing things of true meaning... or something that can be seen as deep and meaningful rather than just some words in a document or on a piece of paper I grabbed at.
I feel like I am letting down a lot of people as of late. As if somehow I am doing something that I am not supposed to be doing or something I should be doing and I just am not. Things have been alright for me. They really could be better. I feel odd and misplaced in this world, it is almost like I was picked out of another zone and placed into something else. I feel that I must regain control of myself soon... and I must regain a part of myself soon as well... I fear I am loosing something about me that I find special and useful and needed. I need time to think about it a lot more than just on my walk home when I have to hurry back here so that some guys don't start following me. I haven't written in my story in a long while, but that is because it needs A LOT of editing done to it and I don't have the time because I work two jobs at the moment. I am excited to start College where my writing will be slightly more focused and I can learn new ways to say things and my vocabulary will hopefully expand. It is very small now. Maybe I should start just looking words up and test them in sentences? Hmm... it doesn't sound like a bad idea. I wanted this to be a little bit more meaningful, but for some reason the deapths of my soul are shut off from me - it worries me. I feel detached from it, my soul, and my being itself is here. I wish I knew why. Perhaps it is because I don't really want to pour too much of myself out anymore... I feel that when I do I am taken advantage of. It has happened more than once where I feel this way. I wish I could share what I am feeling... or rather trying to feel. I feel empty. I don't feel alone though, somehow. How is it that I am empty, and yet not alone? I feel that I should be alone, but I know that there is a presense keeping me company until my disconnected soul returns to me, so to speak. I can feel that it is there, but it feels lost in something I do not know. Something foreign and unreadable with no map to guide me. Maybe what I am experiencing is what everybody experiences once they are on their own, or so they feel that they are; which I do. I am facing a decision, I do not really want to make. Do I want to stay here in Washington, where I am "on my own," or do I want to tell my mom that I am coming to Wisconson? I don't think I could leave my dad here alone... not when he is having such a hard time with money right now. I feel that I should stay, but I am longing to go - it would be a change of scene and I am sick of this one. The same one that I have been in in all chapters of my life. The background has stayed the same throughout. It is dull and boring to see my entire life's story so far played in one scene. One place. The setting makes half of it interesting to hear about. But I suppose I will never really be "heard about." Not unless I do something. I am just unsure of what to do.
What should I do? My mind is racing with many thoughts of things I want and things I want to do and things that I have a duty to do. I feel that I should stay here and watch over some things... sounds odd and crazy. However, I feel that I would be put to better use elsewhere. Such as Wisconson where I am actually needed and could possibly start getting more motivated to put my writing out there. More so than I do now, which is hardly done. I feel that I have a porpose, but I don't know what it is quite yet, nor do I think it will be revealed to me in an easy fashion. I am going to have to work for it. Work for my passion, which I feel is serving my porpose, which I do believe is to touch people through things I have written or said. Silly and strange as it sounds, I can never shake the feeling I get when I write. I feel right. I feel at peace and connected to the world below, about, and above me. It is what I am made to do; I can feel it, down to my roots - deep into my soul, a soul I cannot feel besides when I am in heavy thought while writing. I fear that my writing will soon be lost. Yet I hope and pray to God it will never be, but it is how things work, how everything works. It is a scary thought to think that no one will forever be remembered, not even someone as great a playwright as William Shakespeare or a poet so great as Edward Allen Poe and many more.
I should stop my rediculous ramble here. Farewell.
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn June 23 What A DayWhat A Day it is,
As the Sun is Shining,
When the Heart is toiling,
And the Stomache turning - rebelling.
What A Day it is.
As the workload is heavy,
When the Mind is clutching still,
And those Thoughts so clutched are slipping.
What A Day, indeed.
It should be a Sing-Song of love,
But instead a Dance with Knives,
So goes the Stab as each draws near, in suppos'd peace.
What A Day it is,
As the Sun is Shining,
A Knife Dance takes a heavy place below,
And so goes the Stab as each draws near, in suppos'd peace.
By: Caitlin Schemmer June 19 I am Quitting Spencer's I put in my two weeks notice yesterday and I will no longer be working there as of the 2nd, possibly sooner if Star can get someone in there before then. Today was a kinda crappy day. I was sick, one of my bosses boss thinks that I have a flat personality... so that was an ice cream topper. I am extremely tired right now... I should go to bed. A lot of things are good in my life, and a few things are really shitty. But I won't go into that right now. Nighty night. Bye-Bye, Ttfn June 12 Blarg, Freaking Computers, and The Sims3So I finally got the chance to play The Sims3 on Leif's computer last night, before we went and saw The Hangover (which was REALLY funny), BUT I couldn't play much because his computer decided to take a poop =( So I have to restart my Sim and my game and everything >.< Oh well =) It's not like I played her really, so that is a bonus. I have to say, so far the game is AWESOME for what I like to do with the Sims, which is to make them, not so much play them. I am going to play the game though =P I might even load my Sims onto the Sims Exchange after I get them far enough in life... They have difficulty levels on certain families and your Sims that you have made yourself. I think this is dependant on what personality traits you give them and the amount of people in your home. I noticed that the more people, the higher the difficulty was ranked. I am going to experiment with the personality traits more hopefully tonight if Leif bring his computer back over (I think he said he was going to, but I think he misses it =P). I am going to remake the Sim I made last night though, she was perfect >.< Grr... Stupid need of reinstallation. Anyways, the game is REALLY amazing as far as how pretty it is. There isn't a HUGE selection of any on thing, but thanks to Create A Style (CAS) it doesn't matter; having CAS is WAY better than having a bunch of different couches, but all of them having really ugly looking colors or something that doesn't quite fit. I am still trying to figure out how I make it so that I can match all of the colors up, without sitting there for ten minutes trying to match it up exactly that way. I am going to definitely play around with it as soon as I possibly can. =D I can't even tell you how excited I am right now :D:D:D
I haven't played Cabal in a while... I probably should though... I need to make level 110, or at least 100 soon that way I can start playing WoW and MapleStory. Well... I might just start playing MapleStory on Leif's computer since my laptop won't let me redownload it -.- I am so pissed about that.
Anywho! I better get going, I am at work.
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn June 10 O.o Whoah Odd. Normally this is all green, but for some reason right now it's not, it's white. Racist. Anywho.... Tonight at Spencer's wasn't too bad. Apparently I am spelling wasn't wrong O.o Is that not a word? Hmm... odd. Do you know what else I find odd, and kind of annoying. The fact that your custom smileys only appear on the computer you saved them to -_- How stupid. Grr. I miss my smileys :( I need to send them to myself. I am thinking of making youtube videos, but I am not so sure if I am willing to make an ass out of myself on video. Haha. I haven't used the phrase "heeheehee" In a loooong time. Idk why though. Well I am going to try and make blogs more regularly from now on. OH YEAH!!!! I GOT THE SIMS3 ON MONDAY AND OOOOHHHHH MYYY GOOODDDNNNEESSSS AM I EXCITED :D Sadly I haven't had the chance to play it -.- Because of freakin Leif and his nonplugged in CD player on his computer. Jerk. BUT ANYWHO!! I am very uberly excited about this :D The Sims have come such a long way since when they first came out. I loved the first one sooo much. I remembered thinking that it couldn't get any cooler; then The Sims2 came out! AND NOW! They have finally made it even more graphically intense, but also made it an open living neighborhood! >_< I can't even describe how excited I am! =D I am going to make a special blog on The Sims3 after I get the chance to play it T-O-M-O-R-R-O-W!!!!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! AH XDDD Okay. Well I should go... this was kind of a lame blog. I think I know what I will use for my first vlog on youtube though. So I guess I should get right on that O.o Me and my attempted inspirational paraghaphs/poems. Woo... Okay. I should go =P Bye-Bye, Ttfn June 03 DrainedI sense something is going to happen, to A LOT of people. But it isn't going to be directly related to the single people it effects. I felt it strongest last night, which is why I am so drained today. I better go. I have to get ready for work.
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn May 25 Dancing by ElisaTime is gonna take my mind and carry it far away where I can fly The depth of life will dim the temptation to live for you If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears 'cause it's all about love and I know better How life is a waving feather So I put my arms around you around you And I know that I'll be living soon My eyes are on you they're on you And you see that I can't stop shaking No, I won't step back but I'll look down to hide from your eyes 'cause what I feel is so sweet and I'm scared that even my own breath Oh could burst it if it were a bubble And I'd better dream if I have to struggle So I put my arms around you around you And I hope that I will do no wrong My eyes are on you they're on you And I hope that you won't hurt me I'm dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you No need for anything but music Music's the reason why I know time still exists Time still exists Time still exists So I put my arms around you around you And I hope that I will do no wrong My eyes are on you they're on you And I hope that you won't hurt me So I put my arms around you around you And I hope that I will do no wrong My eyes are on you they're on you And I hope that you won't hurt me I love this song so much... I found it about a year ago. It makes me think, in a good way though. It used to make me depressed, but no more. =) May 17 Hi Hi Hello HelloWell I am at my place of work at the apartments... it is pretty dead, which is bad for business, but good for writing =P
I feel like I shouldn't be on here haha xD (Probably correct!)
Just wanted to make a short blog... work at both places is getting to be a bit better. Star, my boss at Spencer's is going to make me a book list =D I am excited for that! The more I read, the better my writing becomes ^^ I am not going to write anything all "deep" or something along those lines when I am here at the office. But anyways... I should probably do my job xD Hmm... Oh yeah!!! STAR TREK WAS AMAZING! The new X-Men movie was also fairly amazing. I was going to say epic... but I generally don't use that word ever =P So I guess that I won't put that down.
Anyways... the apartment life is kind of boring... I hate not being able to go to college =\ It really blows. I wish that I had a roomate and a more flexable job... but for now I have to deal with it. Oh and by roommate I mean Leif lol He still hasn't moved in yet, but come November he will be living with me :) Hazza. Hopefully I can work something out with Stacey as far as my job... complicated... Anywho. I have to get going. Don't want to get caught ^^
Bye-bye,
Ttfn
P.S. I will probably either walk to Leif's house today (yay for 1:30hr walks!) or write another blog after work, but we will see :) May 04 Pen HolderThere lie the pen, Beside the papers with words written, Perfect; still, and weathered, They lie side by side.
The words once read and marveled, Now decay with the pages of the book, Slowly they fade, And their power; forgotten.
Upon a desk, Of deep oaken wood, Though forgotten the readers have, A ghost of the pen holder does not.
With the ages he has grown, Far now from his former poems, And as he sits he remembers, As he goes back and counts his books numbers.
By: Caitlin Schemmer May 03 Sister MineAh Sister, No more are the days of hide-n-seek, The days will pass, as will the hours and weeks, But no more hide-n-seek.
Separate and alone, In rooms spread far across a nation, Growth of oneself is in great contemplation, Can we do it alone?
Miss you, For the days will be empty, childlessness for weeks, And through this poem, though so meek, Again will we play hide-n-go-seek.
Ah Sister, Again we shall clash, And then it will be over, our victory splash, For I will go home, and you will stay there; and not so very near.
By: Caitlin Schemmer April 25 Thoughts againI don’t know anymore. I want to leave. I want to stay. I want what? What do I want? What do I want? What do I want? What do I want? What do I want? What do I want? What do I want? What do I want? I don’t know. I need a free-day to write. I love, I hate. I am shutting up my mind’s gate. I am a pillar, I will stand strong. Nothing will take me down. I will write. What do I want? I want him, I want Leif. I want to leave Washington. I want Rebecca. I want to finish my book. I want to stick it out. I want college. I want to be myself and be okay with it. I want to love. I want to talk to Chris again because I miss the friendship. I want no more bullshit. I want people to grow up. I want everyone to be safe. I want to be listened to, not just heard. I want to love. I want to see friends I never get to see. I want to see Aaron, both my brother and my friend from my first high school. I want to feel. I want. I want. I want. What do I want? What do I want? I want what? I want to feel and see. I want to take it all in. I want to stick to it. I want. I want. I want. I want to be honest here. I don’t want to fake. I don’t want to die before I get my chance. I don’t want to hate. I want to be permanent, but still movable. I want to move others. I want to change something. I want. I want. I want. What do I want? I want what? I want.
I know that not all of this is possible. And I don't need any schooling on it either. I am just saying what I want. I needed to think. And I wasn't sure if I was going to post this. But fuck it. I am going to.
Bye-Bye, Ttfn April 14 Blog 190Ah jazz... I love that music... Everyone should listen to "You'd Be So Nice To Come Home To" - Kenny Rankin. I love it.
Anyways. A lot has gone on my friends and invis-o friends. I went to Sakura-Con, which was really fun :D Except I didn't get to wear my costume :( Which is really lame. But oh well :) It was still really worth going. Amanda got a lot of pics taken of her xD She was a little weirded out I think lol But Leif's Peter Pan outfit was pretty funny xD I got to keep the tights he wore =O
Btw, I don't remember writing this or not, but I got a cellphone :D YAY!
My mom got a job over in WI :) She is just happy to have a job, but Idk if she is going to enjoy the work that she is doing, but who knows? She said she is going to give it a few weeks before she decides if she likes it. I hope she does.
Hmm... oh yeah, my school wasn't going to give me an extention on my Sr. Project class, which would have ment that I would have failed, but we worked it all out, so I am very happy about that. I get to finish :D Yay for graduating! ^^ But yes, I am actually pretty happy they reopened it.
Hmm... welllll I am pretty tired. I haven't got to play Cabal all too much lately, mainly because I have been really super busy.
I am really happy about getting a phone though. I get to talk to my friends I never get to talk to because of having one :D Wooo
I can't wait to go to the college, I really need to save up though and then get my AA and then transfer to Idk where...
I haven't written hardly anything lately :( It makes me so sad that I haven't been, but my excuse it atm that I was busy. I should be writing more soon... I hope >.<
Anyways... I really want to take the Speech class at the college... I need to build up some confidence. I think I would use that class to test some things that I want to talk to people about. Nothing too big though... because I don't really want to start up anything huge with the class... I don't want to stand out in other words xD Just want to test drive some things. I need to go up there soon...
Speaking of leaving my house, besides work, I need to buy some foods. Amanda is still here btw. Idk what it's going to be like once she is gone... probably awkward. I have made a lot of odd realizations, I had made them before, but it was more of just a knowing thing, not a feeling it thing. For some reason what I just wrote has inspired me to write in my book some. I really need/can't wait to get back into writing. I really need to start practicing again. I was getting semi-good *not trying to toot any sort of horn* at writing poetry, but now it is all gone :( I need to perfect my craft lol I am so weird... I will probably never be great at writing.
You know what? I just realized I am too safe with things... Ex: The Speech class. Why not be a little bit more out there than usual? I don't know/probably will never see anyone in that class again... so why not? I think I am going to try and be a little bit more out there with things. I am kind of tired of always being "Safe-Idea-Caitlin" I want to be new and interesting, to the outside, not just to the people that really get to know me.
Hmm... Something I've noticed is that with a lot of my friends I am kind of trapped in my uncomfortable uniform... meaning not free to be me really. Not their fault... kind of... I guess... maybe it was me? Probably was. For not just being myself from the start. Oh well. I just like my friends and don't want all of them to be stuck on the old me and not like the new me... What am I saying though right now? Is there anything really new about me. Just that I have my own place and that I now have two jobs... I feel out of place though, like somehow I am hiding from something within me. Maybe a thing deep inside me is wanting to come out right now? I don't know... maybe I am just wanting to be more truthful to everyone, not so mysterious. Even though I am as readable as a book on the table, but according to some, I am more complicated than the single words on the page, I am the twisting plot, yet to be finished. Who knows though? I feel so self-centered right now, even though that is not the intention I have from writing this. I am just trying to figure things out, particularly myself out. I don't think anyone knows who "themself" is. Kind of an interesting thing to think about though. Also, what I have noticed is that one of my closest friends is the hardest for me to be myself around, but I like that about him, because he is light and airy and he allows for me to just forget all my troubles for a little bit. Maybe this is because I rarely get to see him? I'm not sure. Possibly. I am trying to think of what to type up next, but I am not sure what that is. So maybe I will just end it. I think I will. But I probably won't for another paragraph or so.
Everything I write in my blogs is "I this" or "I that." Why not something not me? I think (there I go again, but oh well) it is because I let my mind free to think about me for a little bit here. I could write about other things that fill my mind, but I am not sure on the facts about them, but there is no harm in writing them I suppose. So many things right now, but I am not sure where to start, or if they are even appropriate to start where other eyes that my not understand can read the words. That was a bit of a run-on, but that is okay. It is my blog. I can write that way here because it isn't a paper I am turning into teacher. Even though, very soon, I will not be handing in papers to teachers for a little while. Not until August, I think. I am nervous about how things will go over the next few years.
At Sakura-Con I started thinking about the end of the world and things like that, but I can't remember the detail my mind went into it. I wish I could have written it down; well I could have had I brought some paper and a penceil, but I didn't and there isn't much I can do about that now. And, as I said before, I haven't ended my blog for about a paragraph or so. But that is alright with me, it has helped me release a lot that has been going on. Come tomorrow I won't remember half the things I was thinking of saying tonight. Hell, I can't even remember them now. Perhaps that is because I don't have my jazz music playing anymore.
Well I better get going, it is late and I have to work tomorrow, hopefully it will be dead at the apartments.
Bye-bye,
Ttfn March 26 Update: Moved In, My Book Title, and other thingsSo we got all moved in on the 22, so that is all done. My cable guy came yesterday so now I have good working internet, I will be getting my internet bill on the 25th of every month, according my mother :) Who still sleeping in the old apartment... which is kind of weird. She's been really helpful since she decided to move... I find this odd though. Hmm what else... oh yeah :) My kennel came, it's really nice, both the dogs can fit in there if we need them to, but we only did that yesterday because Becky and the Cable guy came around the same time. But anywho... I am faking happiness right now, haha how unusual of me ;) But I am trying to be positive. Things as far as my apartment and job go are great, but other than that things are... well they could be a lot better as far as I am concerned. I wish I wasn't so many things and I wish that I was so many things. But I am me and there is not much I can change about that. Wishing doesn't get anyone very far anyways... not to me anyways. So maybe I will start doing instead, I think that's a good idea.
Anyways, about my book, for those who care to know, it's going to be called "So... Frame Me Deadly" if you knew what was happening right now in the book you'd understand why it's called that :) I am hoping that it will be longer than it is right now, although unfinished, it's pretty damn short. However :) I can always go back and add more, for now it's just getting the ideas out and on paper, editing here and there, which I need to do soon, but I also need to do school xD Now that I have internet.
Hmm... what else... Oh yeah, the Disneyland trip was cancelled (God I hate the word "cancel" looks like it's spelt wrong), well more like postponed till we can set that whole thing up. I am still going to Sakura-Con though, which will hopefully be fun.
I beat I look like death right now xD I stayed up too late last night crying. Oh fun I know. I needed to cry though, I am really stressed out, it's not my apartment or my job though. It's something else.
I should probably work out and do my schooling. I am sure there was something else I needed to say/wanted to say. Hmm... Well my dad has lost weight, which is awesome :D
My mom still leaves on the first. Hmm Oh yeah! One of my co-workers was fired, he was acting really strange when I last saw him. Oh and the new working age at Spencer's is 18, which really sucks, but oh well.
Well there is nothing more I can think to say.... Hmm well I got a new puzzle that was really overly easy.
OKAY! I have to go xD I am sure you don't want to know every detail of my life.
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn
P.S. Still no cellphone and my poetry is depressing me. March 25 Oh Conversations XD 2lalalexie says: ....did you go make that blog.....? Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: YEAH XD Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: It's pretty much just a huge chunk from our convo XD lalalexie says: lmao!!! Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: XD Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: It's so freaking long HAHAHA lalalexie says: yea i'll bet LOL!!! Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL XD Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: That's what she said =O Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: The Bi-lesbian that is Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: =O or maybe it's that's what he said Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: The bi-gay that is =O Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: That's what Alex said HAHAHA Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Sorry xD I am done lalalexie says: lmao wtf? Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL XD Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: XD You should say "That's what Alex said" from now on HAHA lalalexie says: OMG I AM!!! Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Dang it xD Now that needs to go in the blog too! lalalexie says: lmao making it longer??"What the fuck are you guys on" --Alex (and thats what alex said!!!) Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL OMG Oh Conversations XDMiss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: I just asked my sister if she was a "bi-lesbian" Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL lalalexie says: bi-lesbian? wtf? lmao Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: xD We can leave sleeping beauty to his sleep lalalexie says: noooo thats no fun Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Lol xD Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Are you a Bi-Lesbian? Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: =O Leif Offer says: o.O Leif Offer says: yes =) lalalexie says: rofl [: aha so what way to bi-lesbians roll? ( i'll throw a shoe at him, it'll be from you) lalalexie says: do* Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: I think that they roll with the men folk, but aren't afraid to get their bi-lesbian freak on. lalalexie says: LMAO!!!!!!!! Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: No meaning intercourse though =O Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Not* lalalexie says: oh wow of course not Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: NO INTERCOURSE FOR THE BI-LESBIANS! Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Grr lalalexie says: LOL do you get hyper when you're sleepy? Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL XD Kind of lalalexie says: LOL Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: But I think Ia m going to start saying that to people xD Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Just walk up and ask "Are you a bi-lesbian?" lalalexie says: lmao i'd slowly walk away... Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Lol I'd run up and give you a hug lol Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: I'd be all *HUGS* ARE YOU A BI-LESBIAN?! lalalexie says: well yea i'd probably figure it was you since i doubt anyone else has thought up of bi lesbians Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: And you'd know who it was Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Ah man I am tired lalalexie says: .. I can tell.... Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Lol Sorry >.< lalalexie says: LOL Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: =O Katy Perry is a bi-lesbian =OOOOOOOOOOOOO Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: OMG Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: *DISCOVERY* lalalexie says: lmao!!!!!!! Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: >.< I want to tell my sister of my Bi-lesbian discovery but she is lame like Alex and fell asleep lalalexie says: oh BBOOOOOO!!! Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: I know Booo on them. And poo on them too (ew don't actually do that) lalalexie says: lmao like 2 girls 1 cup... siiick Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL OMG NASTY lalalexie says: hahahaha Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: xD I cannot stop laughing Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: I'm trying to be quiet too xD Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL lalalexie says: me either i hit my head on the screen too when you told me your discovery Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOOOOOOOOOOL Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Are you okay? XDDDDD lalalexie says: yesss Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LifelessSoul says: btw i need a new game >.< know any Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Bi-lesbianism Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: I am kidding. Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: But that is my word. Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Don't steal it Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Idk any new games LifelessSoul says: that doesnt even make sense O.O Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: YES IT DOES ! lalalexie says: LMFAO!!!! lalalexie says: omg nooo my stomach ahaha Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL XDDD SORRY XD Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: XD LOL lalalexie says: yeeaaa that was a good laugh (: Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: Sorry I am way too tired LOl
Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says:
LOL lalalexie says: wait! so is there a bi-gay? Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: =O YESH! lalalexie says: lmao (theres alex for ya ) Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOOOOOOOOL Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: He rolls with the lady folk but isn't afraid to get his bi-gay freak on? Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: HAHAHAHA lalalexie says: lmao!!!!!! lalalexie says: thats him Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL lalalexie says: bahahahha oh jeeez he doesn't think its funny lalalexie says: he's lame Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOOOL XD Alex It's funny Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: You Bi-gay boy, you lalalexie says: lmfao lalalexie says: is that his embarassing nickname?
Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says:
LOL YEAH lalalexie says: ahaha defenition of bi-lesbian:katy perry def. of bi-gay:Alex i can just see it in a dictionary Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: LOL XD lalalexie says: LOL wtf Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: I should make a blog about this =O lalalexie says: YES!!! Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: HAHAHAHA MUAHAHHAHAHA lalalexie says: ;OH you're such a lemon Miss Creative-Butt-Pants-Face --- Olivia said so. says: =OOO INDEED I AM! March 22 Something I've NoticedWhen I walk down the street or am in a car looking in people's windows, and I do this at glance, everyone seems so unhappy with whatever they are doing or living. It seems kind of odd that so many people settle instead of reach out for what they want. Just something I've noticed lately. People coming in and out of the store I work at are either completely miserable or completely content. It is weird to me that there are such extremes going on... I rarely see an in between.
This blog isn't making sense to me. I am going to go write in my story some I think.
Bye-Bye,
Ttfn March 17 D: NO!:( One of my blogs was deleted I think :( I am so sad about that now T-T I know I wrote it too :( Maybe I am dreaming though D: I am so upset.
*sigh* Anyways. I am not going to Disneyland anytime soon, but I might be getting a cell this Saturday, but I am not sure.
I gotta do dishes and walk to work.
Bye-Bye,
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